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The search is over. Tomorrow my Darling and I will sign the lease on our new apartment. I am happy and terrified all in one breath. It isn't that I am scared of the commitment involved with living with someone (after all I have been living with my Beau for at least ten months now) but no I have a deadline to complete the clean out and removal of my RV from the park and preparation or the sale. I have been neatly avoiding the entire chore by simply ignoring it. Unfortunately I don't have that luxury anymore. I am tempted to set a match to the thing but as my Sweetheart reminds me that is my reduction in debt and my new car. What is most unpleasant is the realization that I don't want anything from that time period. I look at even the expensive things and think "How can I have that around and no think of bozo?" I want my life to begin again and I still have all the past crap. Don't forget I have all that furniture, appliances and the baby grand piano back in Niagara Falls that I am spending hard earned (could be going out and having fun money) to keep it all in storage. I just have too much stuff. The RV stuff is too nice to throw away and too creepy to keep. I wish you Peace ~alison~ Leave a note: �
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