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2005-08-09 - 11:22 a.m.

Inspired by my friend who counts her blessings I have my own version called reality checks. My father instigated this tradition with his own mantra. In the face of life�s less appealing events he would muse that it was �better than a sharp stick in the eye�. You can always place your world into perspective no matter what you are facing. One mans tragedy is another mans bump in the road.

When I begin to feel sorry for myself I try and remember how my troubles stack up in the grand scheme.

I am divorced. In this country I am allowed to separate from an abusive or unhappy situation. This comes without being shamed by society. I am further allowed to live on my own, walk the streets unescorted, hold a job and basically take care of myself.

I have a mental illness. I am not locked away or pushing a shopping cart through the streets mumbling to myself while folks try and pretend I don�t exist.

I am far away from my family. I have a wonderful �family� of friends who support me and provide me with unconditional love.

I am poor, I can�t afford a house. I have food every day and a roof over my head. Every month I am able to pay my bills. I have rugs instead of dirt for a floor.

I have an addiction. Today I am unchained.

I have no Faith. I still believe that we should do right even without the threat of punishment or the promise of reward.

I have made poor choices in life and love. I am free to make choices in my life without the interference of the government.

I will never fulfill my dreams. I can be happy for today and let tomorrow take care of itself. Dreams are illusions of reality and we can not measure our lives by them.

I will die alone. Everyone dies alone, everyone faces that moment by themselves even in the company of family for no one can share that experience with you.

I fear. My fears are vague rather than concrete. No bomb is likely to go off next to me, no one is shooting at me and today will probably end as yesterday did with me curled up warm in the arms of someone who loves me.

I made a mistake. My mistake did not result in another person�s hurt or death. I will start again tomorrow with a new chance to do things right.

Things could always be worse; life doesn�t just happen to me, I am lucky to have what I have and it could all be gone tomorrow. Those are all good reasons to appreciate everything that is good in my life and temper the bad.
Life is a crap shoot and still if it never gets any better than this it�s still better than a sharp stick in the eye. Isn�t everything?

I wish you Peace

~alison~


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